difficult to perform for kids

its one thing to sit in front of the mirror and practice endlessly and then perhaps recording a lone performance with a webcam and uploading to mvd or some other place and then feeling proud, its an ENTIRELY different matter to perform for real ppl in the real world.

its more difficult i think to perform for kids. recently i had a run of bad luck with the kids at the local "chaay ki dukaan".

i feel more comfortable with cards but carrying cards is not always possible and mostly i have coins or other small objects around. many months back i began with simple coin vanish and other things. the things i did were more of less the following

1) cranium vanish
2) 2 coin transposition / 2 coins coin across
3) wither vanish ( fitz palm )

it was a hit. mostly because they did not know what to expect and then when i did the magic they were all amazed. now i was running out of material to do for them also.

many weeks passed and every day these kids would request me to perform more magic for them. however i had no new material to show them and i would honestly admit that i haven't learn any new stuff. then one day i realized that its important to show ppl the learnt stuff. so began the BIG REALIZATION that i was a wuss, a wimp when it comes to magic.

these little guys caught me on so many occassions.i feel ashamed admiting it here.

there was a lesson in it for me. i have now learnt to digest getting caught. its very important to get critisized and although they don't say that i was bad they just laughed out loud when they catch a secret move.

but i won't give up i have to continue performing for them and learn more. ......